Sunday, May 8, 2011 ' 1:59 AM
she must really have hated me.
did i seem glad ? it was all facade. i couldnt have felt tt way.
she must have really hated me back then and prolly still am.
i dk what to feel or say, let alone to even think.
i dk how to face her. what to talk to her abt when we're at facing point.
i..i guess im ashamed of the fact tt thinking back i seemed relieved tt our gap is widening.
i didnt realise tt was the prob all along. why we couldnt be like how we used to be. comfortable.
maybe i did realise. but i refused to admit it. didnt occur to me tt a prob tt seemed small to be had such a massive repercussions. hence, not to belittle small things.
im just taken aback how strongly she must have felt regarding my selfish, self-centered and inconsiderate attitude.
im just.. umm.. i feel like.. being like Gil Ra Im. being the lil mermaid and just disappearing..
the angst felt by her. i dont know how to appease it.
im just bad at amendments. tt is why i nv want to do anything tt incurs unhappiness in the first place.
;,(
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