i am super shocked and devastated just a moment ago. am still speechless now.

My favourite pop icon king has passed on.. i was just telling myself. no this cant be true. it has to be a joke.

and yup. i was wrong. so wrong. it is not a joke. but why!

i was just using his song yesterday for my presentation in the afternoon. HEAL THE WORLD.

and that very night. at abt 2pm (LA time) and 9pm, local time. while i was busy cheering and waiting for the arrival of a korean idol band, FT ISLAND, on the other part of the world, Michael was busy fighting for his life.

he breathed his last. and left the world. at 2.26pm.

left the world who truly loved his music.

left me. Me who grew up loving him. his music. his dance. his everything.

even though he was controversial icon who made headlines with his molestation cases, nose job, skin operation. it all matters no more now. he is no more.

but he was the legend of all time. and still is.

One of the most influential persons.

Especially for my Kim Jonghyun. im sure Jongs is feeling it as i am. i know jongs. im feeling it too.

it is just totally shocking.

Even Rain too..

Rain was at Incheon International airport heading to Macau when he heard the news: “He was the teacher and the inspiration to me dancing. Even though he is no longer with us, he will always be the best performer on stage…( credits to Imafnzyrh)

But one thing's for sure. He will not be forgotten. He may be gone physically, but his music will live on.

Rest in peace michael. Love you.

Here is one of my fav songs of all time by the legendary King of pop!

Labels: losing the greatest entertainer of all time. RIP michael

so we reached our destination..went to get him a present first. it was a voucher. shopping voucher. easy ma, then he can buy the anything he wants.

furthermore, we arent exactly tt close to him so not sure of stuffs he likes and dislikes.

and we bought it.

then i was thinking the voucher looked plain.

words would do some justice to the otherwise plain paper, so i thought.

but neither of us had a pen.

coincidentally we passed by a open space which was selling watches.. now they are having sale so there were many booths..and two guys were chattin since there werent any customers..

and i saw a pen..so asked if can borrow.. so okay can. they it was weird like writing using their pen in front of them and not buying anything so we decided to go to one side and write without feeling paiseh or anything.. then since they were rather free..they came to where we were and started small talks.. they overheard me saying birthday.. then one of them said.. " oh, birthday..get a watch as a birthday gift?" then we both were like.. er..* burst out laughing*

so we continued writing..then when we were done..returned him back..then the same guy from just now..cos the other guys donow go where.. he said, " a watch for ur dad?" haha! so funny! he just likes us i think! no i think just juans! haha..and we just looked at each other and laughed

and walked away.. haha after thanking him of course!

and then we went to look for the chalet.. and as suaku as we both are..we were kinda lost. we more of forgot where the entrance of the chalet was at downtown.

we actually wanted to follow someone whom i thought looks like they knew the way..but ended up they went to donow where.. so we decided to follow our instincts and yup we are good! we found it.

but after passing this, we had yet another hurdle to pass by. we needed to find the block. and went around..till dead end! haha. i have no sense( reminds me of daoming si's "size") of direction la..ahha

luckily i have juans. she figured that it was actually the room no which was on 2nd floor. so we knocked.. and there he was. it was so touching can..the moment..

it went like this..

we knocked the semi-closed door..he came to the door.. hey..hanisah.. extended his hand to shake mine.. and while we shook hands.. he said thanks for coming, hanisah. then patted my back. like super nice moment can. shook hands with juan too. but he looked nice with his checkered shirt( i love checkered tops btw!) and asked us to go down first.

then he went back in..then we forgot to hand him the present before we really forgot abt it afterwards.. so we knocked again.. then as soon as he took it he said " eh actually dont nid being present..i called u come to eat only"

like li juan said..the moment was just too sweet. cos the CHIN GUAN the whole school knows is the paikia and gangsta kind..who knew he would be this sweet and nice! changed alot la he.

and we are super glad we came! i was taken aback at first when he invited me! tot didnt want to go since the common friends we shared arent tt close to me..luckily there juans!

i think he was touched too that we brought a gift..so this time instead of asking us to go down and help ourselves to the food.. he brought us down.. and told me he catered halal food! and most of his friends are like chinese can. like so nice of him can!

and he double checked with his aunt whom i think was in charged of the catering..

only one was not halal. then the uncle and aunt came to say which one i can eat and which one cant.. it was like i was an important guest..

so we chose out foods and sat down to savour it.. and it was quiet till we finished eating..even before we started eating..i was sweating buckets..like from all angles of my body! i was wearing cardigan 2 more layers inside! what do you expect!

and it was just after a downpour. it was humid la can. sweating like nobody's business while eating. omg. only i know the feeling! i know. gross la can. luckily no one noticed!

so we were done with the food. then we just sat there. and the uncle who took water for us just now walked pass us again and reminded us of our drink..

then after drinking and we did some "gampei" thingy, chatted and just enjoying as though it was a cosy place like say club? cos drinking ma.. but we were drinking soft drink.. me sprit.. and juan 100 plus! haha. in a club? some cute club were in ! ahah

before long mei kang came.. and finally we felt more cosy cos meikang and chin guan are sorta close. mei kang came with her mom and the two children her mom baby sits.. one boy ard 5 years old? and the girl younger..say 3 years old i think..

we both tot the boy was cute and wanted to take a pic with him..so we asked meikang to ask tell him we wanted to take then he said" i dont know these two. why would i want to take pic with them?" so cute right! so young so smart!

so we stuck around for a while.. took pics using meikang and michelle's phone.. and headed for home..my music bank was waiting for me!!

then while reaching our destination..we camwhored in the cabby!

juans.. here are the pics..lovess!


sweaty us! just got on cab.


tryin again..


then juans decided to be a sweetheart..


and be my stylist for the moment! =p

okay still had holes..but this was the one of the nicest pics we took.. juans looks so
nice! im the spoiler! aigoo. haha.

this day is super memorable! im usually an absent minded person.. but surprisingly i remembered like all the details la.. i want to read it years down the road..so i wrote everything tt happened down.. i know this post is long..but its my post. i dont care. haha! =p

and i just remembered. Haz darl said something like this before.. it is the small details tt makes one happy. and this really is true on this very day!


12th JUNE~ lovesss <333

Labels: love small details..

god has been great to me the past few days. i want to thank him for that! THANK YOU GOD!

i have loads to blog abt actually. but now tt i am supposed to vomit it all out of my head.. its BLANK! damn.

okay. let me collect my thoughts..

lets start with the most recent one.

so i was out with juans yest. my CHINA friend! haha. okay not really. she is made in Singapore.just tt she went to china for 3 months. and just came back recently. the fact that she went and stayed there made me think she is from there! haha. =P

so as i was saying..yest we went to CHIN GUAN's birthday. 21st yo! wow. time really flies la. and before i know it im gonna be that age in 10 months! omg. the turning age point in my life!

okay so went there by bus. as soon as juans reached the bustop the bus came! timely arrival! haha.

just the two of us.. i was excited! been so long since we both went out. just us. believe it or not tt day as soon as i left my house for the lift, it felt as if it was ladies night out. i was all dressed up and meeting just juans..just thkinking abt it makes me happy!

and was it a super exciting journey! something which i havent had since sec sch? omg. that is really long..

continuing..while we were on the crowded bus, there was this one guy... ex link prolly no money.so he wanted to pay by cash and boy was his cash way too much for a bus fare. $10 eh!

so wanted to change with anyone on bus. and first 2 person he approached didnt have change. ten freaking bucks. who has.

and one shld have seen his face. so poor thing! he had this " please some kind soul have a change for $10. this is freaking embarassing.."

though it didnt happen to me but i can almost feel him as me being him!

i totally wanted to help him. so i took out my purse. and yes i only had a few 5 cents and 10 cents..omg.. then ask juans..at first she had just 10 cents.. then she dug harder..

thank god she had 1 dollar! and both me and juans was thinking the same. just give him the 1 dollar. everyone was staring alr. so pity tt guy.

he thanked us like paisehly and yes we continued our journey.. and the rest of the journey couldnt get any better!

so we spotted two empty seats and as soon as we both saw it it was almost instant we just looked at each other. telepathy! it was so funny! i just miss the telepathy we had in sec! its all coming backk! and im totally loving it!

okay so now comfortable..sitting down.. the lessons started.. SHINee's lessons!

omg! Juans knows JULIETTE song! thanks to her friend, FIONA! i was super over the moon when i knew tt! and i kinda can guess she would like onew! tts just so her! and i knew she would like key too. just like she likes junjin. for their flawless and super duper fair skin! so we talking abt shinee all the way and SS501! and the funny things they did and all. just loved it loads la!

i just noticed..friends tt i click with better are those whose love interest is ONew! hmm..interesting..

juans..this is the cutie leader onew!

Labels: loves juans

today has been GREAT!

fyp meeting went awesome. except mimi wasnt there. she was stuck home. no keys to go out. so it as just us 4. poor mimi! mimi the orange! haha.

okay so we were spazzing abt SHINee and SUJU and now adilah's addicted to my junjin. we kinda have similar tastes eh? either that or the ones we like are just too awesome!

so after fyp meeting which seemed more like a fun day today ended. and i finally had a talk with Haz darling.

been such a long time we had talked. either she was too early for fyp, i was late or i was off to aunt's place and couldnt go home with her. tts where we get to talk! wee!

okay so i went home and was like waiting for juan to sms me abt today's meet up. she din so i sms ting.

and the time i got home was 5 mins to 5pm and we were meeting in half an hrs time! how to get there la can. what testing my speed ah?

like u guys know me just today eh? im slow la. i take time to do things one. so must inform me earlier la. haha.

so naturally i was late. and i din expect jeremy and ee kiat to join us 3 for gym. so the 4 of them waited for mighty princecess ME! haha. sorry guys! 15 mins while waiting for me was actually a gift for u guys to bond la.. heh

so we went for gym..and boy was it packed with men and minority was ladies and girls from sec..

and we were suaku there. me and juan not knowing what to do. so we just waited for one another to run on threadmill, and do crunches and all.

but we werent really doing much cos there were tons of muscular people walking around and boy did it felt weird. thank god juan was there.

she never failes to make me laugh! i can almost laugh just abt anything with her. seriously!

and this may be a lil late..but juan! welcome backkk! i missed u boyy!! haha

and after abt 2 hrs.. we left and headed for home.


i took bus with ting.

we were chatting how we both met when we were the top 5% or something of the whole sec 1 cohort. we were in diff class. and we both were like top 3 for our individual classes.

tt was our moment to remember.

then we met again in same class in sec 3..where our grade started to drop..

and we were kinda disaoointed in our o level grades cos we were kinda strong in our foundation and what had happened along the way? *reflecting*

she was looking thru our sec photos as she was telling me..

tt i have changed..

tt i was sociable and thinner physically during our sec days..those were really the gloriest days..

that i seemed to be sociable no more as compared to last time. perhaps i was taken aback by how the diff people there are in RP respond to me? i dk.

and i also felt that maybe i was just being anti-social cos i didnt like rejection..like how people responded to me? hmm.. so i kinda closed up a lil i guess..

and i have just got to say this..

she really is a great friend. ting, thanks for always being there for me.

it was as though when i am on the wrong track, u will be there to tell me, "Honey, its tt way, not this. "

we talked abt lots of this. things tt mattered alot to me. like how she wanted the old me back. i also want the old me back! i miss old me!

ting lets do this together and find the old me! okay?

to be frank, i really have got her to thank for making me happy especially during my sec 5.

she was the one who intro SHINHWA to me. my first love in k pop boyband.

it made me happier with me living my life to the fullest, knowing the best idol group ever to me.

tt was the first step to my kpop zone.

and why ting is amazing. yes ting i think u are amazing.

u make such a great friend and i think a friend like u is really rare. i can just talk abt anything with u.

and u are so sincere and genuine tt u just tell what is the truth tt u see.

they say in a relationship, honesty is really important. and u have like liven up to tt.

and also i like the way when someone talks to u, u really look into their eyes, like both, and listen to every word and expression they do. just so liting la!

i used to do that up till primary sch..like really look into the person's eyes and just listen attentive to what they are saying.. and i lost all that. i want that back. i want it all back.

i feel i have lost myself. but ting, i think with u and juan around, i can feel i can get myself back. right?

and just now though the meet up was short, i did alot of thinking and all. abt the chin guan one. thank ting! it meant alot. and im taking ur advice, im gg for it. i want to take the challenge.

and just for the record..i know whatever i said sounds kinda..mushy?

but i dont care. i just have to say it. these are my true feelings when i parted with u just now. been pondering abt it all.

and and ting!i liked it when u said no one noticed ur eye brows and hair diff but me! u made me grin from ear to ear! haha.

im just thankful tt we are havin more meet up! thanks to juan too! for i missed her loads right from the day i left for cambodia till she came back! i miss being with her!

okay. im off to bed. till then. lights out.

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finally! its like super finally! their comeback stage! it's been like forever! and and and..

they won NO 1! first day into their comeback! and boom! they came with an explosion! you cant help but notice them!

its just them. when they do something, they make sure its the best. thats SHINee.

that's also SM. the Lee Soo Man way!

eitherway, im cool. shinee's back. into the spotlight.

and im super loving them. especially my jongs! the writer!

Nevetheless, Shinee's back. and this has been the most awaited day since their hiatus.



omygod! jongs! his eyes.. like running facet la when they announced the winner!

kim jong hyun! i wished i was there. to lend or just give you my shoulder to cry on.

everyone was busy dealing with the fact that they won!

first key was too shocked. his expression when they announced the results. always looking nice as ever!

then at the back you could see minho..he was actually crying too but he is one that controls his emotions on stage. i think he cries backdoor. still he looked rather sexy? with his fingers on his lips and all, controlling the tears..

onew leader was incoherent when he gave his thank you speech. too overwhelmed.

and jong was too emotional. and tts what i love abt him him.

when they won the LLO also they had waterfalls. just the maknae taeminnie! too young to really be feeling what the hyungs are feeling.

and and i loved the way the mc Sae yoon said,"AIGOO SHINee" when jong was really crying

and then the super junior members were like hugging him..

luckily kangin hugged him..then yesung..

donghae was there too!for key.. he was crying too! aigoo these two. forever! but i love them!

then mingblings moment!

im loving minblings like alot lately. i think they make a great couple. one is quiet and the other chatty! complementary! lovess.

and right now my key board is wet.. with my running hand water! haha.

today is just great.

i think it made history.

fist day comeback,wont #1 spot. song written by member, just one year debut.

and everyone was happy for them! SUJU and even the dancers were throwing confetti over the cry babies!

and i love these cry babies! esp the one with the most waterfall!

and i just made another discovery! im like similar to him in this aspect.
im emotional and sensitive person. so is he!

he cried like real badly when they wont LLO..

then during a radio interview to thank his loved ones..he cried like real. and i mean REAL bad.

it was so so bad tt he could barely gather his voice to speak.even the dj had to ask him to calm down and passed the mike to the other members before asking him to calm down and try speaking again. yes seriously. tt bad.

but i just like him this way.. one may look at it as his flaw..but i look at it as his strength and tts what i love abt him.

KIM JONG HYUN. my writer!
KIM KEY BUM!
MAKNAE TAE MINNIE!
PUGOU CHARISMA MINHO!
ONEW LEADER!

congrates on winning! and i love you guys like alot.

P.S jonggies. dont cry soo much. but i will be there if you need me. just call me. =P

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