Monday, February 9, 2009 ' 1:44 AM
two in a day?
i was reading my friends' blogs when i chance upon two of them(they dont know each other) they were crying on the very same day.
one im not worried as she cried tears of joy...she was touched by a moment where she felt a sense of bonding..
the other i am worried..now still worried hence i had to write the post to get it off my chest. she was crying but i dont know why. she just does tell no why. i want to know. im worried! she usually is very happy-go-lucky looking. so knowing that she had been crying is really worrying! hope everything goes well for u tomorrow. cry today and just forget the unhappiness tomorrow alright?
well that's what i do. i just cry it out whenever i am feeling lousy, sad, embarrassed..well just about anything that is not happy and get back to life the next day. well life goes on. i dont know about the other but i just dont want people to know that i have been crying. it just makes me feel even worse. like a loser.
to be honest, i feel that i am an open book. any emotion i feel is written on my face. but that emotion usually applies to me being happy. i do sometimes pull a long face. that is when i have mood swings. and i am easily happy, contented but i can also be easily hurt. im rather sensitive. but i dont show that i am sensitive for i dont know how to deal with the situation if i were to defend and protect myself. i dont like it when the situation gets silent and awkward. it makes me feel bad. it's as though everyone is unhappy because of me. so actually i just keep quite and pretend that everything is all right just to get over the moment and then cry myself silly the next. well its common for me. it happens all the time. but i can never get immune to it. i just wish i would be immune to it all. like hudada wrote on her msn:
wish for a heart anesthesia.experiencing so many emotions lately, i just feel like opening up more now that i have blog. i feel better too now.
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