Sunday, September 29, 2013 ' 4:23 PM
:'(
I dont have anyone. I realised. To depend on. To take care of my mom when im away overseas.
But mommy, please hang on okay ? Im coming home. Soon. I will try very hard.
and will stay strong just like you mommy. I havent got a confidante where i can fill her or him up with details thats troubling me. I just dont want to trouble anyone else. I guess i learnt it from you in that aspect mommy.
Please dont fall sick and i will come back mommy.
Love you. Now and forever.
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Sunday, May 8, 2011 ' 1:59 AM
she must really have hated me.
did i seem glad ? it was all facade. i couldnt have felt tt way.
she must have really hated me back then and prolly still am.
i dk what to feel or say, let alone to even think.
i dk how to face her. what to talk to her abt when we're at facing point.
i..i guess im ashamed of the fact tt thinking back i seemed relieved tt our gap is widening.
i didnt realise tt was the prob all along. why we couldnt be like how we used to be. comfortable.
maybe i did realise. but i refused to admit it. didnt occur to me tt a prob tt seemed small to be had such a massive repercussions. hence, not to belittle small things.
im just taken aback how strongly she must have felt regarding my selfish, self-centered and inconsiderate attitude.
im just.. umm.. i feel like.. being like Gil Ra Im. being the lil mermaid and just disappearing..
the angst felt by her. i dont know how to appease it.
im just bad at amendments. tt is why i nv want to do anything tt incurs unhappiness in the first place.
;,(
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Sunday, August 15, 2010 ' 11:33 PM
yaynesss and Lol-ed!
my precious won! like duh! of course they would! but just didnt expect them to rule over Boa since she is like sunbae!
but yayness! *spins around with confetti falling*
oh my oh my! look at their priceless facess! and i have alr noticed it before! this combackk has more than before OnHo moments! like thisss! look at them being shocked and in disbelief expressions tgt! i love them ALOT ALOT! keep it coming my babies!
and i was thinking the same as someone who commented!
starting when they won, jongs was like from the back came out, stretched his eyeballs wide and he was like checking if it was true or not. so cute!
then minho and onew were from behind the mc's yonghwa suddenly came and gave him flowers and said tt they won. and he was like looking ard. and " what? are u for real? we what? " so was minho! look at them both! so cute or what!
key was there just laughing to it happily and oh really we did?! but taemin not much expression. bet he was also shocked too~
omg they totally deserve it. their choreograph is like super diff can. and to maintain tt amazing and not panting voice whilst doing tt dance seriously is no mean feat. so deserving the win! win more and moree pleaseee! the more the merrier! love you guys super loadssss!
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' 10:03 PM
love update~
latest rookie im in love lately.
Infinite!!
pronounced as in-feee-neat!
and look at them so smiley miley! so cute or what! and i mean ALL! i dont usually like all at one go can! but look at them! :pppp
and the ones i like are usually the crazy ones. omg. so true!
he was supposedly the cold and cool guy. but here 360 degrees turn can! he kept putting up the peace sign like 4 timessssssss! yes i counted! and smiling to cam and to the members and lastly doing the peace sign with the other member, Sung-yeol! it looked like doing the big heart sign with each other being half but end up peace-ing sign tgt! how cute! all cuties lah can! cant choose who i really like but all is <333
yup i agree! some commented they havent won awards yet. but i believe it will come soon! they are GOOD! with a thumbs up!
In-fee-neat and Teen Top are just awesome rookies to look out for and win awards! Hope they win awards soon and get the recognition they deserve soon! or not it's just a matter of time for they are really great on stage!
they have vocals, looks (like duh for kpop idols) and most importantly synchronization like crazy! they totally rock it for both groups in terms of teamwork! tts de most important for me in a group! and tts what a group is all about!
just look at my Shinhwa and Shinee and you'll get what i mean~ :D
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Monday, August 2, 2010 ' 10:06 PM
agreeeeee.
i kinda agree with what wannie says.
he said on his blog..
But why do people go to such great lengths to seek love…
It’s because love is the source of happiness, and the proof that you’re alive.
When in love with someone, people meet another side of themselves.
Discover the meaning of the lives that they live only once.
Why were they born. Why are they alive.
The only answer to these questions is love.
When embracing the ones they love
In that moment people gain eternal life.
Foolish us, we live for love.
It’s because love is the source of happiness, and the proof that you’re alive.
When in love with someone, people meet another side of themselves.
Discover the meaning of the lives that they live only once.
Why were they born. Why are they alive.
The only answer to these questions is love.
When embracing the ones they love
In that moment people gain eternal life.
Foolish us, we live for love.
and foolishly for the whole of 2010, i have been living for the love of the bands who have been invading Singapore! no matter what the price was, it wasnt comparable to the love i have for them and wanting to just get close to them if nt have some interaction like the high 5 event!!
here's the list
+ Shinee !!!
+Shinee !!! (they came again! and still not enough of them! )
+ Beast !! ( i didnt go for all their events tho. SADED! 2/3 events i went. Can alr some might say. but i so wanted to go their showcase! the songs. It's kinda rare for me to like all the songs on a band's album! Shinee and Beast! Plus picked them up from airport some more! )
+ Ukiss ( i didnt go but sent them off since i was picking beast up on the very same dayy)
+ this month : BEAST again!! for YOG. OMG!! (Kikwanggggg i miss youu! Hi-yeom!! and i wanna say stop doing the american and european dance... so erotic! but i like you the same! )
+ next month: OMGGGG! JAY PARK!! ahhhh. so so excited for thiss!
and the list probably will get longer since it will be nearing to yr end and i can predict singapore will be flooded by K-pop artist till yr end. and the airports are soo gonna be like the zoo. monkeys climbing everything and anything they can get on just to have clearer view of the idols before the go onto the bus after they land and when they leave spore. i so wont be those monkeys but will be there! :D
and love. Shinhwa love. i will have to wait a super great long time before i can ever watch their concert. Wannie. Sungie. Jinnie. Erriccc. Andyy. Minbonggg! when are you guys flooding here tooo. My love. me foolish love for bands right now maybe alot. yes i feel so greedy liking everyone now. but to still love them for a long time. i can say right now and forever. Shinhwa and Shinee. Love tt will not change.
Wannie. i know im foolish. but what to do. you guys are just gonna be loved by me! No escape! *evil laughter*
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Saturday, July 31, 2010 ' 4:31 PM
what a sad day
grrr.
after a long day today. especially woke up freaking early. some 4 hrs earlier than i usually would on a free sat. after sleeping at 4am the night before.
all for what. for the tix. been anxious. couldnt even fall aslp. thinking if i would get the tix or nt.
anxiety. panic. filled me. as i left home to head for the SAM machine. which didnt work! so headed for the Singpost. thought it would be faster. but dangg. the bandwith super short. error like for the 100th time as the manager tried. we kept on trying. then helped me with the SAM machine as i somehow am a noob when it comes to new things.
and still nope. so i said u keep trying for me while i go home try online. would be faster. so i left my no and name behind. and went home tried for an hr. then called the singpost again.
alike to eunhyuk each time he gets to the semi-finals before the final game on DT, he gets eliminated.
same for the manager. he was alr at the last page and damn. EROR! ask for my info all and damn cant! and i didnt want to give up. kept trying for donoe how long.and finally i gt! ard 12 noon ! 2 hrs plus of trying! CAT 1 sold out can! by the first 1/2 hr or so!
CAT 2 selling fast! gd seats taken ! just click whatever available! and thankfully my VISA was allowed for the payment mode! should have stayed home to do it. I shld have been able to get CAT 1~damn. just my luck.
so yeah. i was successful but my fren who was at the SAM machine the whole time. she came earlier than the time it started selling. and she was just stuck there for over an hr. poor her. so after mine was settled i helped her to book too. so we were all relieved fangirls!
then it feels really sad when you turn and someone asks "why am i gg for their fanmeet?" :8
wah nice question. this is just so sad. well prolly i didnt show i like them ? but i do listen to their music. yup. this is just great.
well i really like alot of bands lei. must i talk abt all of them? :(
when it comes to k-pop there is like a bunch tt i like. and it just keeps adding on..
P.s: no offence or anything yo.
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' 2:18 AM
i'm ALIVE AGAIN~
life feels good now tt they are backk!it feels GREAT with their first LUCIFER WIN!! *screams*
if you'd ask me. they should have won on the day they made their comeback! just like Juliette!
anyways. they won on music bank yest! and i hope and i know. i can totally FEEL it.
MUSIC CORE and INKIGAYO is theirs to take home no 1 too! like come on! it's SHINEE yo!
they are back! to sweep us off our feet!
and they are the BEST! i can almost SWEAR! (i dont swear. i never swear, mind you)
they make the best reaction to their win. (except for puppy jongs. he didnt cry! or show tt much of an happiness compared to the rest. his eyes is usually a running faucet!)
the words they say. how grateful they are. never forget their fans! their family.
aww key! i love how his gratitude is shown when he thanked his omma,appa, halmoni nomu saranghamnida and kamsamidaa!
i can almost hear him saying in my head (" kim ki bum halmoni saranghae!" back where they first were in Thailand for their interview. how cute right!)
and and key mumbling something to himself while Dubu was making his thank you speech! cute or what!
onew's shocked face and thoughts " is it really ours? no 1? is it? omg. i cant believe it"
and he cried backstage! Staff diary posted it. he couldnt even have his pic taken cos he was crying and as always my baby would be the one comforting his hyungs! my babyHO! for the Juliette no1 it was jongs who was in his arms. now our cutey Dubu!
taeminie's happy hand gesture over his mouth when they won.
must be from the charisma hyung! and he rubbed key's shaved part of the head. so cuteeeee! you cutest-lovely little maknae! how happy u must have been!
and you! YOU! my ♥♥♥
i knew i loved you for a zillion reasons!
and you just keep adding it on! i totally love you! ur omg hand gesture on your forehead like " yes omg! we did it! " and deary you almost cried! youe eyes were red! thankfully for song jongki! dream team member! aww comforting him! Komawoo!
at times like this i REALY wish i could have been there! in the studio! with you! maybe not beside you but just in the same place.
and times like this i REALLY REALLY love you more and more! the group hug was the BEST MOVE EVER ! the best Winning move ever!
minkey love! and joined by minkeymin! and onew and then jongs!
Kim Jonghyun! why'd u pull out of the lovely hug so soon? paiseh much ? haha. we all know you are the King of Skinship! o.<
and onew's SHOUT was soooo needed! omg! Onew-sangtae! miss it!!
and your cracked KAMSAMIDA voice! ur shinee world kamsahaeyo while squatting is so ♥
omg! i totally love the squatting! must have been onew's idea! tt BEHAVIOUR, REALLY!
and and and! im really laughing out loud now can! KEY's face when all 4 alrd squatting during the encore was PRICELESSSSSSSSS!
IM SERIOUSLY SERIOUS! all in line and he just hi-ed lee joon( aww mblaq looveee!) before he turns and looks ard. then he went" eh what is this? why are we squatting? damn i can this pants is really tight" omg u should his face. damn hilarious! plus his hair style and tt face?! omg.
MINHO's FACE! tt nodding thing! after the dancers came and stand like their bodyguards behind. im super in love with it! omg. this boyy. REALLY! :]]]
their name should always be accompanied by the word AWESOME! no words is enough to describe how DAEBAK they REALLY ARE!
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